First Post Here

I don't know if anyone will even see this. In fact, there are many who I hope never do, or don't realize who I am. I closed my myspace a few weeks ago, needing a break from things. I kept a fairly active blog there, but I didn't feel I could say what was on my heart. Long story.

So here I am on blogger.

I have finally made a clean break from a group of "friends" that were unhealthy to me. I thought they could be trusted because they are in a Christian music group. The group is not listed in my music favs, so there is no way anyone could figure out who I'm talking about unless they figure out who I am. And please, no Christian-bashing.

So, God told me over a year ago to break away from a fan club that they were taking over, but I thought it was because the girl who'd formed it is a mean, hateful, vicious person who lies as easily as she breathes. I found out a few nights ago that the group members themselves aren't so great either. I shared my heart with them, and they decided to share it with someone in Canada who shared it with someone in OH, who thought it best to tell me. And of course, by the time it gets back to me, it's not what I originally said, but in fact paints me in a rather poor light. *sigh*

Yes, I know I'm not perfect. Believe me I know that. I'm just venting, and I will be over it after this. And yes, I know they are just people and that God loves them. And in the end, once this life is over and we're all in heaven, this will not even be remembered. I am still learning to let it go and let God heal my heart. I do forgive all of them, as I know I've done stuff that needs to be forgiven. It's not "forgive and forget", because that's not how our brains are designed. Instead, we forgive, and then look to Jesus to help us deal with the pain of the memories. And from here, unless directed otherwise by God, this chapter in my life is closed.

And so, that's all I will dwell on that. My posts from here on out should be more on the positive side.

God bless.